its been a while...

dah lama awak tak update anything in this blog...

its been a while.. a lot has change, a lot of things had happen for this past few months.
owh yea... yesterday was my birth day.. hari matang awak. happy birthday to me.yeay.. alhamdulilah awak still bernafas sampai hari ini.

utk dia .. thank you for the thoughts love and care that you have gave to me. :) syg kamu.
for my family, thank you very much for the love, and for my friends.. thank you so much for the wishes.. all of you.. nothing much that i can say than a BIG THANK YOU!

anyways saja nak update beberapa rentetan episod sebelum hari matang awak semalam!

- a day before my hari matang.. awak tergolek anjing kat dapur rumah yg lebih tragis nya jatuh kat tepi tong sampah ok!sangat tragis! (busuk sebenarnya) lebih terbaik wok, awak nya kaki terlipat OMG , and disebabkan awak menampung awak nya badan yang comel ini akibatknya bahu awak terkehel. (sumpah aku nampak tulang bahu terkeluar kot) or kata lain nya dislocate!!arghHhhhh sangat sakit ok!

- a few day sebelum hari matang awak! kereta pulak xcident.sangat sedih ok tengok kereta yang agak remuk, macam thu jugaklah remuknya hati awak ini. aduhhh!! sodihhh ok! tapi kereta telah berjaya di pulihkan pada hari sabtu. owh yea.. xcident nye ari isnin 03/12/2010.

- banyak lagi sebenarnya benda yg jadi.. tapi awak takder masa nak update.. skang ni tengah sangat takder mood. baiklaa!! kerja qiqi .. kerja QIQI. !! kerja! alalalala.

RAPUH

Belum sempat ku membagi kebahagiaanku
Belum sempat ku membuat dia tersenyum
Haruskah ku kehilangan ‘tuk kesekian kali
Tuhan kumohon jangan lakukan itu

Sebab ku sayang dia
Sebab ku kasihi dia
Sebab ku tak rela
Tak s’lalu bersama

Ku rapuh tanpa dia
Seperti kehilangan arah
Jikalau memang harus ku alami duka
Kuatkan hati ini menerimanya

Lebam!

yuhuuuu... dah lama awak tak have the chance to sit and write something..

it has been a lot since the last time i posted something in this blog... hahaha.. blog? i dont think so its a blog. its more of an expression of mine.(melalut)

wow...!! where to start.. hurm.. a lot.. but what? and how?

indeed there is a lot...

work? hectic but satisfying

life? tiring but surviving..

love? hard to explain but indeed enjoying..

health? never well..haha

money? never enough but getting better

family? ok i guess..

friends? -same as above-

scandals? nil

ex? they are happy with life

path? dont have any glimpse where am i heading to..

so is it ok? i think i can consider it as ok.. huhuhu.. till then.. im just lack of ideas now.

maybe later at night i guess.

peace no war.

perbualan dalam!

Is your favourite colour blue?

Do you always tell the truth?

Do you believe in outerspace?

And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?

Does your hair flow sideways?

Did someone took a portion of your heart?

And im learning you

And if you dont mind

Can you tell me

All your hopes and fears

and Everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you

And in time you will too

if you dont mind

Can you tell me

All your hopes and fears

and Everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

if you dont mind

Can you tell me

All your hopes and fears

and Everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

Deeper Conversation

let me

budak setan2!

awak sangat la mengantuk hari ini.. teramat sangatla mengantok. nasib baik sempat awak sampai ofis on time sebelum meredah jam yang sangat bodoh.!

semalam premier tayangan Lagenda Budak Setan.Awak memang dah siap-siap booking cerita ini on 1st June lagi.Awak pergi tengok show pukul 9.30PM.

Well i must say that i enjoy reading the book more than watching the movie, not to say that the movie wasn't good but movies punya story line is limited due to time duration, so banyak benda yang di pendekkan, dipotong.Novel is really in details, so small2 details ini yang buat novel tu sangat berkesan. Tapi kredit jugak to the movie as koyak jugak emosi awak tengok cerita ini. (hehehe).

I would give 3-3 1/2 star la. Actually for them yang belum baca novel dia sure enjoy the movie cause they dont know what to expect. Tapi siapa yang baca novel ini maybe akan sedikit hampa kot.

Anyhow awak pergi tengok dengan 'dia' semalam. hehe koyak betul awak tengok dia merabakkan mata dia melalak. keke.. amik kau. den dah kato cito eh sodih.!thank you sebab teman saya tengok cerita ini ye.

The main character

• Farid Kamil - Kasyah, i can say that he's acting was bersahaja, not so bad.implementation sadness dia agak menjadi dow.

• Lisa Surihani - Ayu, dia ini awak imagine seorang perempuan yang sangat gracious and lembut and anggun. I must say that lisa gave a different breeze sedikit for watak ayu but okla. Ayu yang hilang ingatan awak lagi suka.

• Que Haidar - Azmi, ex- si ayu.Pergh Kredit to him sebab sangat pandai menjiwai watak dia.Sumpah awak memang sangat benci ok.

• Fazura - Katerina, waduh.. dia memang sangat layak ok pegang watak Kat ini. Memang as per my imagination. lap U!

there is actually a sambungan for the movie... so lets hope that the second adaptation is better.

peace ya all.

budak setan!

lagenda budak setan...

An epic of the most sad, great love story ever yang awak pernah baca kat novel (actually the only novel yang awak pernah baca) hahaha..

cerita lagenda budak setan ini, sangat la menyentuh hati awak, sangat sedih ok! its basically kisah cinta agung seorang pelesit or budak setan bernama kasyah yang sangat jahat ok, yang tak pernah kenal erti cinta sampai la dia jumpa seorang gadis bernama Ayu. Kasyah dan Ayu pasangan yang memang di uji dengan hebat. Kasyah yang sanggup menjadi seorang pencinta agung, mengharungi apa sahaja demi cinta nya kepada Ayu. (feeling weyh)

ok back to reality, basically cerita ini memang awak sangat tunggu. dulu time awak baca buku dia, awak pernah terdetik "pasal la dorang tak buat filem novel best nak mampus dow".
so today awak akan pergi tengok filem ini dengan 'dia'.

penceritaan novel ini sangat detail and mengoyakkan hati awak yang agak macho ini.wakaka.to whom yang pernah kenalkan awak dengan novel ini awak ucapkan jutaan terima kasih.atleast aku baca jugak novel melayu. haha.

lets go and watch the movie people. i hope the movie meets my expectation.. :)

bunuh saudara!

“Dan berpeganglah kamu semuanya kepada tali (agama) Allah, dan janganlah kamu bercerai berai, dan ingatlah akan nikmat Allah kepadamu ketika kamu dahulu (masa Jahiliyah) bermusuh-musuhan, maka Allah mempersatukan hatimu, lalu menjadilah kamu kerana nikmat Allah, orang-orang yang bersaudara; dan kamu telah berada di tepi jurang neraka, lalu Allah menyelamatkan kamu dari padanya. Demikianlah Allah menerangkan ayat-ayat-Nya kepadamu, agar kamu mendapat petunjuk.” (Ali Imran, 3: 103)

awak tak nak bercakap tentang kekejaman israel, sebab bangsa ini memang kejam. awak tak mahu sentuh tentang saudara kita yang di serang di atas kapal, awak tak mahu kata tentang union-union on the earth yang tak habis-habis bersidang, tak habis-habis berbincang, tak habis-habis berkonfrontasi, sentuh sudut politik, sentuh sensitvity hak manusia, agama dan macam-macam yang di telagahkan di meja bulat persidangan dunia. itu semua awak tak mahu sentuh.

awak nak ajak semua duduk and cuba betul-betul duduk dan fikir sejenak, apa peranan kita nak tolong saudara kita di Gaza. kita salahkan menteri ini, kita salahkan menteri itu, kita salahkan USA, UNION, kita salah kan semua.awak bukan nak cakap siapa salah siapa betul, tapi awak nak tanya, kita buat apa? kita bebetul tolong or atleast cuba tolong saudara kita tak ?

cuba kita duduk and tengok barang2 sekeliling kita. kita pakai and guna barang siapa? actually kita sendiri, kita sesama saudara sendiri yang menjadi contributor besar kepada bangsa-bangsa laknatullah ini untuk terus tindas saudara kita. awak tak menyalahkan sesiapa, awak juga masih menggunakan barang-barang keluaran mereka.

korang tahu tak bangsa israel ini bijak, manusia pelarian yang sejak dari dulu lagi tidak ada tanah sendiri?berjaya dengan sangat jayanya memonopoli dunia. siapa yang bantu mereka sebenarnya? sapa yang tolong jana ekonomi mereka? KITA! kita sendiri yang bunuh saudara kita.

awak tahu mungkin ramai yang marah, sedih, tak puas hati dengan apa yg awak tulis ini, awak tak berniat nak sakitkan hati siapa-siapa..awak tulis untuk beritahu yang marilah kita sama-sama cuba atleast kurangkan dan kalau boleh jangan guna langsung produk mereka. kita mampu.. kita mampu cuba.. kita kena cuba..saudara kita perlukan kita.

kita mampu wahai saudara ku... kita mampu.

confront!

awak just confronted a friend...

dear friend.. how bad you are.. what ever our past has been like..what ever your obstacles has been.. im always there for you.

tme, people, environment may have change us.. may have distance us but believe me that i have never have grudge on you.what ever people may say about you.. your just being your self.dont change cause its who you are. dont think to much..think about your self before you think about others.

dear friend... life is to short to fill it with hatred. be strong and stay strong. i love you dear friend.

langkah bendul!

last saturday on the 29/05/10 ...magic has actually happen as my sister was engage alhamdulilah..syukur awak ke hadrat allah s.w.t.. dia dah selamat ..im really happy for you sis.

well basically there's nothing much awak nak say pun today.i just feel like writing to show how gratefull i am toward my sister. Even awak di'skipping' oleh dia. hahaha tapi awak tak kisah. apa salah nya nak buat benda baik nak tunggu2 buat apa.

talking about skipping nie, awak rasa its basically a trend dah nowdays. women dulu and now is toally different. we look at things in a different prespective. point of view pun dah banyak beza. basically there nothing wrong pun about this skipping concept. but the main thing yang awak sad sebenarnya is basically mentality and people's perception yang still belum merdeka..

or melayu bile nak merdeka?? what ever it is.. to my dear sis... alhamdulilah.. sekarang dah jadi tunangan orang.. dan insyallah kalau ada rezeki bakal jadi isteri orang. so act like one yea.

chow sin ci people.....

memancing!!

kawan awak cakap... " kiki you are just in denial..." for god sake.. face the fact!"

kawan awak cakap jugak " what do you defined as happiness ? when you have then what?

kawan awak cerita about a fisherman and a businessman...

the businessman went to a jeti and brought along his family. so at the jeti he met a fisherman..

the businessman went there for fishing.. he waited and waited and waited.. so there is this fisherman that was fishing as well.. each hour he got a fish.. so this businessman got annoyed and approach him.. excuse me.. " can you go and take or buy a small boat and go directly to the sea and catch more fish? " the fisherman answered "then what?".. businessman said that "then you can gain more fish and become richer" again the fisherman answered "then what?" businessman said " when you become richer you will make your loved once happy then the fisherman answered " if i say that i have all that then what?" so businessman stood there and kept quiet............ silence.

basically moral of the story.. awak just nak cakap..ask ourselves is there any closure or ending to this life? what is really happiness? money cant buy the things, money cant really do anything.. it may be a bonus but indeed people just need is love.. love can be big.. love is a soul to human..its is basically nyawa for you to live.

think about it.. and ask yourself.. what do you really want in life.

zzzzzzzzzz

melayu mudah lupa!!

Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya dipijak Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya retakMelayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya teriak Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya haprak Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya kelas duaMelayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya hinaMelayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya sengketa Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya derita Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya kerdil Melayu mudah lupa
Dulu bangsanya terpencil Melayu mudah lupa
Tiada daulat Tiada maruah Tiada bebas Melayu mudah lupa
Melayu mudah lupa Melayu mudah lupa
Sejarah bangsanya yang lena Tanah lahirnya yang merekah berdarah IngatlahIngatlahIngatlahWahai bangsaku Jangan mudah lupa lagi
Kerana perjuanganmu belum selesai...


this is a poem that was done by our highly genius appreciated the great among us all former prime minister TUN DR MAHATHIR..

awak sebenarnya tidak ada kerja"yet" so awak read through some things and i came across this lovely, lively,spirited poem.

awak duduk and pikir sejenak and read it words by words. memang sedih bila kita kenangkan bangsa kita..bangsa kita .. maruah kita. awak baca poem ini bukan dari sudut politik.. tapi awak baca artikel ini dari pandang manusia, humanity. awak bukan a big fan of surat khabar.. i seldom read it and kadang-kadang awak tak tahu apa yg berlaku dengan sekeliling awak, tapi bila awak duduk and baca poem ini, awak dapat rasa and awak masih bersyukur dengan keadaan awak.
living in this lovely country.

awak rasa every each of us ada perasaan racist..awak minta maaf awak mengaku yang awak memang tergolong dari golongan itu, bangsa lain maju pijak kepala kita..kita tunduk and duduk sahaja. orang bilang angguk kita angguk... orang bilang geleng kita geleng..

awak tulis bukan nak cetuskan masalah. awak tulis sebagai seorang melayu.
bercakap tentang melayu.. sejauh mana melayu kita?? rambut awak seniri blonde..
sejauh mana melayu kita?? awak sendiri hidup macam mat salleh..
sejauh mana melayu kita?? pakaian awak masih tak melambangkan melayu..
sejauh mana melayu kita?? orang melayu bertatoo..
sejauh mana melayu kita?? cakap mat salleh sahaja..

awak tak condemn awak tak kutuk.. awak sendiri ada flaws awak..

think about it.
sejauh mana melayu kita...

why me..!!

aduhhhhhhhhhhhhh kenapa awak..

awak malas la dengan benda-benda rasmi mcm ni.
nak coffee session segala... awak malas nak pergi boleh tak ??
awak malassssssssssssssssssss!! otak awak sekarang bukan di tempat kerja.

kalau awak merapu meraban macam mana...awak nak cakap apa nanti..

awak malas la!

pink jurnal!!

semalam awak keluar dengan a besties of mine..

awak dah lama tak jumpa dia.. we share stories kat tony romma semalam..
satu soalan dia tanya " ki lu bebetul jatuh ek ngan awek lu skang?" .. dia cakap lagi " wa tak pernah tengok lu camnie .. wa rasa last dengan shaz dulu"

awak gelak and diam at the same time... awak pun jawab " wa pun tak tahu kenapa john" wa dah jauh dari mabuk dah ni"... then both of us start cracking.. hahaha..

awak balik from jumpa kawan awak semalam.. 'dia' macam tak ada mood. awak tanya dia kata " xde apa-apa.. awak blur!

awak merayap kat MV semalam .. cuba cari barang yang maybe boleh happy kan dia.. awak bagi kat dia.. dia senyum... lepas thu again dia muram.. awak tak tahu sampai bila..


awak tak tahu sampai bila....

1999-2009

a friend always said when i call her.. napa dengan you ni? what is wrong this time?

dear friend.. i didnt call you just because im having problem.. yea i admit i seldom call.. like i said earlier.. " its been a while i havent got the chance to follow your blog.dissapear it doesnt mean that i dont remember, didnt call doesnt mean that i dont care.10years is the prove!tc on the obstacles.your much worth than this. "

dear friend.. i do miss you a lot.. im having difiiculties but i dont want to call you as you mite think that i only remember you when im down..

today this morning awak baca blog kawan awak.. awak sedih and awak rasa dia juga sedih.
dear kawan... awak tak pernah lupa.. 10tahun and its coming to 11 years dah.. this entry is for you. Take care ok.

berak!!

good morning to the world... its not exactly a good morning i may say..

i didnt have enough sleep.. mata awak sangat mengantok and im having my menstrual. argh!! sangat tense...tapi the best part of my day today is i wake up smilling because i did have a good weekend i think so la... hurm... im not sure if it was good untuk that someone.. it was a bit awkward in the 1st place, it was hard as well to start a conversation.. and it was hard jugak memula when i jumpa 'dia'. tapi... in the end of the day i may say that i think it turn out quite well. Even its not completely well tapi awak just want to say thank you very very very much because u can still see me, jumpa me, spent time wif me even keep on nyanyi lagu apa ku kisah.. huuhuh... tapi awak nak cakap thanks to you. :)

Awak tau its not easy untuk dia jugak thats why awak sangat2 appreciate because dia masih mampu nak jumpa awak.thank you.

awak sebenarnya dah setel buat case awak, so im waiting for my boss to provide me new cases.sementara tengah dalam keadaan sengal nie awak saje la update blog awak.

awak nak berak jap!! arghh potong stim betul.

chow sin ci...

pink elephant sesat!!

Im in the office now, and im stuck with a case since tadi. So basically im taking a short break daripada awak smoke baik awak blogging.

Last night awak borak dengan 'dia' dalam sms, there is a lot of crying even dia tak nampak awak. its very hard nowdays awak nak have a decent cenversation dengan dia. awak tahu dia hurt badly. awak tak tahu mcm mana awak nak cakap dengan dia yang awak sayangkan dia and awak menyesal.

Awak duduk kat dalam bilik and ive been doing some deep thinking tapi sampai sudah awak tak dapat answer yang awak cari.I dont know why i feel so lost.. sangat-sangat lost sampai i dont know where i am and where am i heading to.

I use to be so lively and full of fun and spirit. Sekarang awak rasa macam mayat hidup pun ada. pegi keje, balik keje. Life macam no MOTIF!! I dont like how i am now but awak sendiri tak dapat nak buat apa-apa. Awak dah pernah jatuh sekali dalam hidup, and again awak jatuh! I fall really bad this time. Really-really bad. Maybe awak tak leh nak describe apa yang awak rasa by writing but awak pun tak tahu nak share dengan sapa by words.

Awak lost... really lost..

empty

i dont know where to start...

i dont know where im heading to...

i dont know where to stop...

i dont know what to do...

im lost .. but i know the direction..

im sleeping but im awake..

im hungry but i have ate..

i dont know what to do.

im dead but im alive..

im sick but im ok..

im empty but im thinking..

i dont know what to do..

i miss you but you are hurt..

i want you but you refuse

i love you but we are distance..

you are near and yet so far..

dont loose me and please hold my hand cause im falling apart now.

overload!!

good morning.. i guess its nearly afternoon already.

awak dah lama tak update blog awak.. a lot has been happening since, but awak malas nak share sangat dengan sapa2 yg baca blg awak ini.

hurmmm.... where should i start yea? ok basically today is my anny wif 'dia'. awak dah lama tak jumpa dengan dia. banyak benda dah jadi between awak n 'dia' sekarang ini... tapi where ever you are awak sentiasa doakan supaya dia sentiasa dilindungi Allah s.w.t and sihat hendaknya, and to you i really miss you, very very very much.

awak sebenarnya banyak benda awak nak cerita tapi awak terlampau overload sekarang. basically awak sekarang sangat-sangat la lemah and sangat malas nak pergi kerja, nak bangun pagi, nak hidup. mcm dah malas dow, tapi awak bangun jugak sebab sapa pulak nak bayar duit kereta awak nanti hahaha...

awak sambung update nanti lah, tetiba awak tidak ada mood untuk write anything.

different

now its different..

everything seems to be uncertain.

you changed because of me

i have changed because of situation..

now its different..

i miss the old times.

times seems not at my side anymore..

now its different..

i miss the black book..

i miss the moments in the car

i miss having coffee like before.

now its different..

you are more bold..

i am more shallow

we change and we grow.

now its different..

you've made more friends..

i am loosing friends..

end of the day i'm just at home alone.

now its different..

i've made mistake..you've been hurt.

you've hurt..i'm loosing

the differences is a depth now.

im sad.... because of this differences :(

insomnia!!

its has been few days im having a terrible fever.. really weak and exhausted.

awak seniri dah lama tak update blog ... well there is a lot that had happen in this month... especially for the past few days. i don't know exactly how to express it in my blog..

basically what i feel like sharing today is about relationship..

relationship needs trust rite.. so when you have betrayed the trust of your loved once its really hard to gain it back. awak pernah terbaca there is a quote saying that is easy to gain someones trust but its really hard to keep it. i have failed to keep the trust to my love ones.

i dont blame 'dia' kalau this time dia dah make dia nye decision. awak nak tanak have to be ready for it. there is also quote saying that .. 'what goes around comes around'... indeed its karma.. apa yang kita buat kat orang sekarang tuhan bayar cash..

in relation ship basically , you cant predict what will happen.. its important to share and always discuss problems even small things that you may not know will effect the heart of your love ones.

in my previous post i have once talk about abnormal-ians kan.. so basically awak in this type of relationship. at times you intend to control situation but at times it will just slip out of control.

being a abnormal-ians isnt that easy as people may think it is.. your partner expect more.. why?1st because you are their type and your are suppose to understand each other better.. awak sangat stress and im really out of solution how could i make things better...

awak just leh cakap that the truth hurts.. sometimes lies are good cause you're intention is not to lie but your intention is not to hurt your loved once.. so when they intend to find out the truth it may hurt. a piece of advice for anyone that is reading this.. appreciate what you have cause once you loose it you couldn't turn back time.you will never know when its gone...

nite people.. peace and love ya all

wonder bra!!!

i wonder about a girl..

wonder what is she doing..

wonder what is she wearing..

wonder if she is ok...even for only one day..

i wonder if she has eaten for the day..

i wonder if she combs her hair..

wonder what is she doing...

if she has a thought of despair.

i wonder about this girl..

wonder if she has a partner..

wonder who sends her home..

making her day brigther..

i wonder about this girl..

if she is thinking about me..

wonder how can i be with her..

to make her like me..

i wonder about this girl..

wonder if she notice me..

wonder if she is having the same thought..

so i can stop this wondering in me..

borneo bumi kenyalang

15hb hari tu awak telah terbang ke Sarawak Borneo .. Bumi Kenyalang.

let me tell you that it was quit fascinating when i was there.

i dont deny that bandar Kuching agak aman (sunyi).. sebabnya i was expecting that kucing agak busy ye uols. tapi being there was actually a piece of mind sebab awak lari sekejap from the hectic of Kuala Lumpur.

a bit tips of Sarawak... sapa yang pegi sana mesti pekena MEE KOLOKKKKK !! weyhh nyaman lalu.. (sumpah tak regret sedap!!)

there is a few destinations that you can try when you head to Sarawak.

accomodation - you can stay at a few of the lodge there.. basically Kuching has a lot of affordable lodge that suits your budget. a tip is cari yang near dengan town or waterfront yang famous itew.. senang nak jalan kaki.

transportation - jangan lah korang cari yang jauh2 dengan town or yang terpaksa menyusahkan diri naik cab kerana cab sangat mahal yea.. there is another attraction and transportation yang sangat murah that is called PENAMBANG. hehehe RM0.50 je... Penambang adalah sejenis transport air yang bukan jetski, bukan juga banana boat.. tapi ia adalah sampan yang ada bumbung. sangat teruja ye time awak naik. heheheh (sebenarnya aku cuak) it helps the local including the tourist untuk cross over the water front. seriously cheap and worth it. kalau korang nak cross guna taxi adalah RM45(gileee hapa). kalau nak lagi jimat mintak tolong kawan2,atau kekasih atau cari kekasih yang asal Sarawak. hehe

food - talking about food... aduyaiiiii...awak puas hati.. awak bagi rating 4star.. for all the food. semuanya boleh dikatakan murah and memuaskan hati. janganlah pergi sana makan benda2 commercial yang ada kat KUALA LUMPUR sangat tak berbaloi ye.

few things that you can try is :

mee kolok , laksa sarawak, seafood..(sangat puas hati dan murah) try restoran BAROK. you can also try sayur midin...aduh sedap.mmg sedap.

shopping - ok , kalau korang nak beli handcrafts or souvenir nak bawak balik KL sangat tidak menjadi masalah, sebab along the waterfront ada banyak sangat kedai2 yg jual souvenir yang sangat worth it ye.(aku giler and rambang mata).

basically overall it was worth it la.. but if you are looking for night life in sarawak .. agak sukar.. sebab time2 happening is only during saturday nights. heheheh

selamat bercuti2 borneo. :)

bertempur..berperang

salam...

awak baru balik from ofis..

awak dalam keadaan yang sangat kusut. awak pening and semak. awak sangat keliru and konfius dengan keadaan diri awak.

when sometimes you are fighting to much for sumthing you intend to give up and lose it.

awak sendiri berada dalam keadaan yg sangat devistated. awak tak tahu mana arah tuju awak.

kadang-kadang awak sendiri tak mahu tahu where am i heading to.

when i think that im moving forward , i intend to go back to the starting lane.

how do you want me to do this.. how should i go forward. what else i can do to gain respect. to established back my own integriti. awak tak tahu.

in peace..

semlm awak tgh drive..awak terkejut and sangat terpaku sbb awak receive a phone call yg sangat awak tak sangka.

awak dapat panggilan telefon from a friend of mine.

soalan pertama dia tanya awak..." babe kau ada terima berita apa2 pasal jessy tak ? "awak jawab dengan nada selamba la "takder".

babe i dont know it is confirm or not but she passed away babe...................................... silence.

awak tatahu how to react...

awak pun kaku and tatahu nak tulis apa dalam blog awak. the way she is gone was really tragic.

apa pun awak just nak wish even kita bukan sebangsa, seagama, tapi kita adalah sesama manusia.

may you rest in peace... i know u have gone to a better place.

drive!!

adakah lebih baik, atau sebaliknya

kita memandang kehadapan tapi masih tinjau di belakang

aku tahu mana arah tuju kita

kita laju tapi perlahan pada masa yang sama

no tak perlu gesa..

kau bukan seorang

masih ada harapan, masih ada tempat

bila kau rasa jauh

kita patah pada garisan permulaan

never fair

im sorry...

life was never fair.

i didnt mean to hurt neither to be hurt.

im sorry...

emotions are hard to explain.

i have my reasons and so do you.

im sorry...

you and i both love

kau dan aku

kita ada cerita

cerita kau dan aku

kita yang mula

kau dan aku

mana mula dan mana hujungnya

kau dan aku

kita sama rasa

kau dan aku

aku sayang kau

kau sayang aku

kita sama sayang

kau dan aku

cerita kita , kita sahaja yang tahu

kau dan aku

aku dan kau..

berry itam!!

selamat pagi dunia...

awak sepatutnya menjalankan tanggungjwb awak untuk mandi dan berangkat ke kantor awak, tp leh lak awak layan buat blog dulu kan.hahahha... ; ))

awak sebenarnya sangat teruja sebab pagi2 lagi tanpa awak sangka..awak dikejutkan oleh bapak awak.. awak macam pelik gak sbb awak musykil in mymind berpikir sejenak (alamak apa yg aku kantoi nie). akan tetapi rupanya bapa awak yg hensem itew telah membelikan awak sarung baju untuk berry hitam awak.

nak gelak ada, terkujat pun ada , terharu ye u ols.wakakakakak

awak hari nie akan report ke base kantor awak yang lagi satu which is at technology park malaysia yang berada betul2 berhampiran dengan astro..(perlu ke geography tempat gila).awak dah agak lambat nak ke pejabat tapi awak nya both hands masih meneruskan tarian kat keyboard nie..awak pun tak faham apa masalah awak nie.aku dah lambat la gila.baik stop sekarang.

ok sekian..luv luv..

jemu rasa!!

awak sedang mengalami perasaan jemu rasa atau bosan berada di dalam pejabat awak hari nie.
ini adalah kerana awak sangat2 mengantuk yg teramat la sangat(sambil menguap mata kemerah-merahan) sebab tak cukup beradu tadi.

awak ni adalah kelawar @ keluang woman malam yang mana awak berkhidmat untuk rakyat2 singapura yang sangat bongkak lagi kiasu and toooooo demanding itew ye you ols.(mampus kalau boss aku baca). awak akan berkhidmat dari pukul 4-12mlm, sepatotnya tidur awak memang cukup, tetapi disebabkan awak telah berjimba bersama 'dia' dan rakan-rakan setongkol malam tadi jadi sememangnya awak sangat mengantok.

ok, berbalik kepada perasaan jemu rasa awak tadi, awak sebenarnya bukan nak cerita awak tak cukup beradu tapi awak nak tahu apa pendatapan kamu-kamu semua tentang bagaimana nak menghilangkan perasaan jemu rasa atau bosan nie, sbb awak punya mata sekarang sangatla layu dan tidak bermaya(tapi cuba ajak aku keluar...laju ajork).

awak akan beredar untuk mengambil bantuan pernafasan awak sementara selama 15minit(kalau manager awak xjerit).sekian terima kasih.

ABnormal - ians

love is a never ending subject which no one can ever describe it perfectly.

bagi awk la kan awak tak rasa love patot ada limitation... limitation is universal basically.

awak today bukan nak talk about awak nye feeling tapi awak nak cakap love universally.

love can be a lot of undefined things... love banyak type..awak malas nak cakap love to god, love to family , love to love ones sume.

tapi ada one topic yg awak rasa nak trigger nak share dalam blog awak nie. awak tau kalau awak tulis nie confirm awak kena maki sbb it will actually cross the basics of religious and moral values.

ok, when we talk about love..love ni kan besar.. love can be anything.love is not suppose to be wrong or rite tul tak..i mean if berlandaskan hukum hakam yg betul in life la kan.so when sebut pasal hukum hakam in life nie.. kiter tahu yg exist among us love yg abnormal...when we talk about sejenis, it is really sensitif.

awak tak niat nak kutuk sapa2..tapi awak tahu awak akan kena bambu sbb cakap benda ni.awak masih ingat agama awk..and awak tak nafikan love 'setype' nie mmg salah.tapi apa yg awak cuba nak share is..awak kesian sbb feelings and soul thingy nie tak leh nak tipu. awak kesian sbb there is a lot of love among this type of people..sacrifice,tears and sweat ,pain and agony sumenya sama mcm normal people.. awak kadang2 kesian sbb abnormal-ians ni pun ada feeling and hati.

bukan hak awak or hak other people nak jugde benda nie salah or betul..end of the day hanya 'dia' yg satu yg ada hak untuk buat any judgment. the pure, the sacrifice, the true feelings inside yg sanggup devoted dengan partner masing2 is a true love. end of the day its just love. mmg betul abnormal-ians is not supposed to happen religiously, tp logically the attraction is science..

haha... coz awak believe yang all the people in the world they have atleast 10% out of them is GAY. for example : kite suka tgk pompuan lain yg cantik, or maybe lelaki lain yg hensem..so it does attract us even skit tul tak?? so its either feelings to di develop atau pun tak..itu je.. but for all normal people out there..i dont think its our rite to judge how love should be defined as..end of the day everyone needs sumone.

sekian..love love..no war.

KENAL!!

awk tak kenal dia..

dia tak kenal awak..

kiter jumpa kenal each other....

awak suka dia...

dia suka awak...

kiter sama2 suka...

awak gaduh dengan dia..

dia gaduh dengan awak..

kiter sama2 gaduh..

awak tanya dia..sayang awak tak ?

dia tanya awak gak..sayang saya tak?

awak cakap ye..dia cakap tak..

awak marah dia..

dia marah awak..

kite sama2 marah...

awak tak faham dia kadang2..

dia slalu tak faham awak..

tapi awak masih dengan dia..

dia pun masih dengan awak..

awak takleh nak janji..tapi awak leh jaga dia..

dia pun tak pernah janji dengan awak..tapi dia masih jaga..

kiter sama2 jaga...

terima kasih dia..sayang dia...